Death Still Haunts Me


 there was a knife bleeding with the blood of someone I killed 
lying next to a corpse, white like paper
I thought he used to be red until I sucked blood from him
and now I stare lifelessly at his deadly being
eyes open, like he knew it was me and wanted to be
I am falling 
falling from the standard of sanity
I wish I shrieked but my throat was thin
dry like I am choked by the sand of guilt
there were two people until a minute
and now there was one wondering if it deserved to be
a l i v e and d e a d
could one be?
can we even live after we kill?
there was a curtain and it was all turned red
oh I wish I had some bleach
bleach for the floor and some bleach
for my head
erasing everything
just erasing everything
    or I could take pills and sleep
could I sleep?
I will wake up dead like him tomorrow
staring the world through empty pupils
I will see many walking people again 
but wonder if I can kill
there was a knife and it was caked with the blood of someone I killed
I heard the sirens of someone coming
stupid people. stupid noises. stupid grins. 
clenched teeth and no voices in the head
I have everything I once wished
there is a knife and a person standing next to me
I am bleeding they tell me
but they are not sure if the blood is mine
they lift me up, carry me in a jeep
 like I am dead
they should be carrying him
I am alive I scream 
I scream. I scream. I scream.


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